life is so confusing

i had an eye opening, system shocking, life altering moment yesterday. im now jumping ahead, let me go back to the start,

there's this boy, his name is B, i find him irresistibly attractive, and well i finally had the opportunity to kiss him, so like any other young lady, i jumped on the chance. as time went on, we were more then just kisses, we were causal...fun. nothing serious, but a good time non the less. like all other girls, i obviously would like to be more then fun. and now i have to throw a wrench in his life story.

last month we had some fun, and some cloths ( all clothes where off) and one thing led to another, the moment was heated and passionate. i didnt think anything of it as i was taking the needed precautions,  but like all other unpredictable situations you cant tell the future. time went on, i didnt notice anything, but then i got to thinking, of the "what if...." and those can be dangerous.

then of last week came around i was wondering when mother nature is coming around, still no sign, so like the prepared female, i decided to test out the slim chances that my urine may just reveal a bump in the road. the test was a blinking positive "yes"..... i didnt believe it, false positives happen all the time right?

so what should my next set be? obviously to get it confirmed or dismissed, i went to a unplanned parenthood office to see if they could give me a positive or negative, she gave me a congratulations,.....    shit, she said its a 99% chance its real.


now what? i guess its time to find a real doctor to get this confirmed, so i can break it to the poor guy who im not even in a relationship with.

Life just got so confusing