March 8th, 2012

Another  memorable time chilling with D. His birthday was the very next day. so obviosly i had to hang out with him untill i could be the ligit first person to wish him a happy birthday! I pre much rocked that! We watched a tv show, which by the was had quite a few sex scenes!, but we wached that in his room, layin on his bed again! This time we didnt really cuddle untill it got late. like  almost midnight. i some how mannaged to sneak in and  cozy on up beside him. we just chilled and chatted. then some how, we ened up face to face, like so close. eyes closed and just chilling, nothing nore happening. untill i  came back from starting the car, layed right on top of him!  squish squish, then i decided to lick his cheek! he ened up getting me back. so i licked his nose. then he started to nodd off, so i kissed his nose! after that he seemed to have a jump start and was a lil' more awake! We ended up face to face again, so close i could have kissed him, or he coould have kissed me. but no kissed happened. I was going to kiss him because it was his last moment being 19. but i decided against it. why? im not sure, probably because kissing leads to other things, things im not sure im ready for. what things exactly do i mean? i dont just mean the physical things, buthe mental aspect of it all, i would love a boy to have to cuddle and kiss with, but i heard that that usually requires a relationship...